Calling Attention to What Needs Work

How breakthroughs, both in the home and in the mind, can also feel like steps back.

I keep promising to post more about my house and about animism, about viewing my house as a living thing, and to be honest I've felt a bit stuck. When I bought the house, I cleaned it to the point where it wasn't full of trash anymore... and then I got stuck. (There were a couple spaces, like the crawl space and the garage, where I couldn't even face cleaning them until I had a friend to help.) It was hard to even think about what I wanted my spaces to look like. I could envision a few pie-in-the-sky, special-purpose spaces that I wasn't going to be able to make for a long time, not until there had been several renovations! But in terms of things like the office, living room, kitchen, where I was actually spending most of my time... nada. Couldn't think about what I wanted in my daily life beyond "tidy."

In the past few weeks, I had a little breakthrough that made it more possible to start to think in these ways.